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-Friday, April 29, 2005-

blurry pic...!
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juz me n ayu..
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[ [curvy road....] ]
OohWeEe...
examz over yesterday...n d feelin is SPLENDID!met dear yesterday b4 goin ta skul...had lunch, den headed ta skul a bit early fer last minute crammin!d cold virus suddenly strucked me...n i was practically sneezin thruout d whole paper!was feelin down, must b d irritatin runny nose, even wen d paper had ended, but it was all gone as soon as he appeared!he picked me up fr skul n ta town we go...decided not ta haf dinner coz bof of us still felt full fr d extra-heavy lunch we had..so was juz chillin ard...crappin n laughin...no worries...aww,i missed it!
d exam period was sucky...freakin mood swings, a result of overwhelmin stress...but i did it!lucky i haf ma beloved huz olwez dere, patiently supportin me, makin ma days lighter n brighter n frens hu were olwez dere ta ssure me tt im on d rite track, clearin ma endless doubts n teachin me all d "new" stuff...so special thanks go to d sweetest peepz- aqilah, aarti, magnus n esp u, zahdan!thank u so much fer ur notes...had zapped it 2hrs b4 d paper!wudnt noe wat i had crapped wif only ma clean lect notes n 2 pathetic readings!geez...n i even tot of skippin tt paper...wat was i tinkin sey tt time!urgh!but thank god i din follow dis super foolish brain of mine!*sigh*wateva...im SO THRU fer d exams!
im lookin fer a job now...ta fill ma time as well as ta fill ma pocket...no money,no enjoy uh!plus, ma parents arent overloaded banks!so people, if any of u do noe of any job lobangs, do tell me aite!thankies...hee!hoildays planned...cant wait...im lovin it!dear's gone fer 3 days..off ta m'sia..lonely weekends...nah, shall holler d girls...de-stress ppl!outzzzzzzzzzzz...!!!
its juz emotions takin her over...
light dims upon her
she turned around to see
million eyes watchin over her
waitin fer her next mistake
to witness her another fall
as perfect as she tries to be
things cant simply go her way
she sacrificed her biggest moment
fell on her knees,broke down n cry
stares concentrated on her
contented upon what they see
she's simply losin it
a dishevelled doll
ttz wat she is
but sadly wat dey dunnoe..she cant freakin care wat ppl haf got ta say abt her...she's livin in her own paradigm...
no..no..no..ma old-time fav....aww...
*she feels so re-freshed*
HolLeReD at
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[ [take it slow] ]
-Wednesday, April 13, 2005-
no more date dues...
no more tests...
only d cumin exams...
in a weeks time...
urgh!
i noe i haven been updatin. n dis is because...
- stupid freakin laptop crashed on me!
- been extremely irritatingly busy muggin!
- in no mood to!*sigh*
luckily d day went well 2dae....met dearest in d mornin...crashed-gate wif me ta lect but went out durin d break coz pity him was so hungry!hee...din join me back fer d lect after tt...lucky he din..coz i was bz discussin d test answers wif ma frens...n he'ld be left alone if he was dere...test was allrite...managed ta ans d qns...it was open book n open discussion btw!but even if u haf d bestest textbook wif ya...it wun b of any use!n i had ta squeeze d ans wif dis tiny minute compressed brain of mine!klah...plus dose fr freakingly crazy born-smart peepz!lucky i sat wif dem...dis is wat u kol 'survival of d fittest'!kwakwa... headed ta town after tt wif dear...he wanted ta do abit of shoppin..."bau kedai uh!"=p den had dinner at rex mackenzie rd...yummy2!
n nw im back hm...all "hyped up" ta do ma revision...~bluek~
wateva...
i noe dis is all temporary...i can imagine better days ahead...campin trip in mlysia...shoppin in kl...holiday in bangkok...dancin wif ma peepz...movie marathons...beaches...endless outings...it'll get so much better,i noe it will...
" u dun noe hw much u mean to me...
wenever ure down, u noe tt u can lean on me...
no matter d situation,boy,im gonna hold u down..."
ill b bz dese cumin days...thank u so much fer understandin...i shall meet u up real soon aite...luv ya!
d stress is crankin me up.mah mood's kinda shitty lately.i hate ta feel dis way.ta feel so lost n so confused.evrything juz feel so not rite.sumtin juz seems ta b missin.ta get mahself ta feel so lonely.but wen i do.i'll tink of u.n i noe.tt sumhow ure always dere wif me.ta make tings go d rite way.n it always do.ure mah angel in disguise.god bless.
*she's taking things slow*
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[ [shagged...] ]
-Wednesday, April 06, 2005-
still in skul...strugglin wif mah law n malay society 3000 words essay...*sigh*
asked mah father ta fetch me...dun feel like goin hm all alone 2nite...mah brain's gettin tired uh...but got ta finish it by 2dae,coz got 2 tests ta mug fer...urgh!nah..nah..i shant complain..im enthusiastic about all this...ermmm...watevalah indah!
at least tt fish n chips was yummy!hee... crappy ppl...n dey kol me weird!i still dun get wat dey mean...kwakwa...i noe im slow abit...=p
juz got tis song n i lurve it!!!wOoHoO!it hypes me up...*winks*
sum1's b'day cumin...hint hint...hee..."so wat can i gif u inside a box???"
no answers...no prezzie...kwakwa...
d road may b a bit rough...
but we'll hang thru...
im sure we can...
d complications tt happened...
has not drifted us apart...
but brought us closer...
coz the downs n not d ups tt define a relationship...
*she's brain-drained*
HolLeReD at
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[ [she misses him...] ]
-Tuesday, April 05, 2005-
I MISS U!I MISS U!I MISS U!
i nid u by mah side...so will u cum n make it all rite...???
i noe im so cranky nowadays...n get pretty irritating...but u noe,i dun mean to...i nid u so...
cant wait ta meet u again...*sigh*
*she misses him so much*
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-Monday, April 04, 2005-

juz me n d gerls!
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ta town we go...!
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[ [hectic weeks ahead!!!] ]
been kinda bz lately wif skul...2 more tests n 1 more date due b4 d exams...n d irritatin thing is tt...bof tests n date due falls on d SAME DAY!hw much more lucky can i get?!hmmph!
nah...i juz cant b bothered animore...ill juz do ma best...wat matters i noe ive tried!n aniwez...i believe in mahself!truly blessed tt ive got skulmates tt care...lets study smart n strive fer As ppl!cheh!mcm paham jek!hee... plus, ive got a super supportive family, beloved lupp lupp huz alwez dere n sweet sincere frens ta brighten ma days...luv u peeps so much!!!*BIG HUG*
met alot of ppl recently...sri sweets n rul...wan sweets...n azreen dearest!!!i miss her so much can!!!*pouts* anticipatin nites out n bangkok trip wif her soon...dear,u'll follow 2 aite!hee...
remembered our jc days...d 1st person i befriended...no,no...d 1st person i approached...aww...so shweet...n she became ma lesbian partner since den...kwakwa!
been abit cranky lately...talkative n crazy one moment, den quiet n gloomy d other...dearest knows it best...im so sowei...*looks down* thank u so much fer toleratin...
freakin mood swings!
sum ppl r juz so freakin irresponsible!!!u noe hu u r....feel d pinch!
*she misses dancin...let's party soon*
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u tINk u NOE hEr...
wElL,tInK AgaIn Coz maYbe u DuN...
PeoPlE ArE HyPOcRiTeS...
duN tRy Ta denY!
"Tiger Lily" by Matchbook Romance
we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go (and never let go)
i'll never let go (i'll never let go)
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawl of you
for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
cause i (cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse.(2x)
why does tonight, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
cause i (cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse.
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words
cause i, i don't want to make things
and i, i don't want to make things any worse